He CANNOT see. It is no reflection on you. An Addict in DENIAL is like well it's hard to understand...seriously check out the family and friends board....you will find so many people there asking exactly the same questions...but you have to get yourself a support system.
Don't think in absolutes yet until you are stronger with a support structure! Your feelings are natual. It would be very dangerous to do nothing and let your thoughts get to you...you need that support strucuture - just loike us addicts NEED it...and in my opinion you need it face to face...SR is a great adddition.
You will learn so much...good luck!
Cathy31
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