Hey Susie, I'm always so glad when you check in.
Hon, you have got to get OUT of that neighborhood. Give yourself the GIFT of being free of him and the toxic pool he lives in and with.
You deserve that.
But even beyond that, we NEED space in order to recover. We need TIME and DISTANCE from the emotional maelstrom of loving an addict. Only YOU can give yourself that. I hope you will choose to do that sooner rather than later.