There's a lot of different ways to describe what you are feeling CLAS, but I think the bottom line is that recovery is hard and we need to address whatever issues ail us during this time. Our default reaction in the past whenever we felt this was was to drink of course, so it's hard to face the world on it's own terms.
Coming here to discuss it of course is a much better option than drinking, so that's a positive step. It's also a good reminder to re-focus your efforts on your recovery, whatever your plan may be. Or even time to look at your recovery plan itself and see if there is something you need to change or add.