Welcome! I was afraid to go to my first meeting. A sober friend took me, or it might have taken me longer to work up the courage. From the moment we stepped through the door, I felt welcomed and accepted. I listened, didn't say much, but I heard other people telling my exact same story. For the first time in a long time, I felt like I belonged. On the very first day. I went to 3-4 meetings a week early on, in addition to the 3x a week I was attending intensive outpatient treatment. I try to get to two meetings a week now. I agree with everyone else - just going to meetings might not do much for you ultimately - working the steps is the key. But getting to those first few meetings will get you on the road. You have nothing to lose, and possibly the beginning of a life of sobriety and serenity.