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Change is so hard. But if you asked every man and women who left their addict, if there life was better or worse. I bet you would get a huge response that their lives were so much better.
I sometime question my divorce over 2 years aog, wondering if I did the right thing. Then I get the answer..... ( A friend of a friend saw axh Saturday as he was moving some furniture. The one friend asked my friend if axh had a drinking problem. She asked him why he asked, and he said at noon that he smelled like alcohol. Not sure if it was a bloody Sat. morning or a bad night, and still smelling. But it really doesn't matter in my life anymore. I am grateful I slept well and had no one to worry about). These are the answers that make believe that I am ok.
Hugs my friend, it will all fall into place.