I have decided not to drink today. Combination of no money and wanting to regain some control. And, to be honest, a little bit to make my therapist happy.
But, it is harder than i expected.
Usually the feeling of panic and "i cant do this" comes right before the stores close, causing me to run out to by some. Today the awful feeling has been there all day.
I have planned to go to training with some friends tonight. Skipped it the last few weeks so i could stay home drinking in stead. I am trying to focus on the fact that When i get back home and am done showering, it will soon be bedtime, so no time to drink anyways....