Thanks everyone. I was on naltrexone, which completely suppressed my cravings, but made me quite ill. I had to quit, and so now they are back.
I was lonely and tired. The coffee helped and I did some stuff around the house.
I have been admitted into a program at a local hospital that works on finding out the root of the problem. It involves a lot of work with groups and psychiatrists. I am an atheist and have a hard time with AA. I'm hopeful about this program, but it doesn't start for another month, so i spend a lot of time on here.