It's not a linear process, unfortunately...you have my sympathy. What kept me going was the realization that I never, ever wanted to go through this again. And they say it gets worse if you start over, which I believe...research "kindling."
Grit your teeth, point out to your addiction that you have enough on your plate without it weighing in, thank you, and by the way, it can kindly kiss off.
You can do this.