Thank You Dee 74 for replying, I do not feel it made him cheat, while i do feel the amounts he was doing did make him not care for crap, mostly its just that ever since meth entered our marriage the trust has been tested to say the least, normal ppl couldnt say and do all that unless they felt something for someone, or I couldn't, just trying to understand as much as I can before I try again, if I do, hard to trust him