Welcome to a great place for encouragement, ScaredOfJack.
We're so glad to have you with us.
At 34 I refused to acknowledge what drinking was doing to my life. As a result, I kept going & ended up drinking every day later in life. So much needless damage & destruction. This doesn't have to happen to you - thankfully you see the truth about your addiction.
Congrats on your Day 1 - you can do this.