Thanks for sharring Anaka. Have you ever attended an Al-anon recovery meeting and or an Acoa group? They might be alot of hands on help,and more advice. Also in a bit I would try checking on a personal sponser. I'm also new sort of at least on the web. Theres a well noted saying, as to what insanity or lack of information is/ when a person trys the same thing over and over again but expects differant results,thats insane.