So, yeah...this is the hallmark of addiction. Every person who has been addicted to something has experienced this push and pull...this "being of two minds". It's exhausting and really not sustainable. Something gives

For me it was not about forcing those two parts of me into alignment because the way I see the addicted part of me, there is no reasoning with that part or changing that part. That part of me will always seek the drunk or high. Always. But here's the thing. That part of me doesn't have to be in charge. That part of me can be separated from and ignored. In doing that, there is no struggle, no forcing. It's like walking away from a tennis match. There is no lobbing back forth of the ball once I stop hitting it. The game is over when I walk away

Stoked you're joining us! Not gonna lie, it takes a badass to make it to this side, but you are fully capable. It's pretty cool over here.