doesnt really read like anything is wrong with ya,pooky. i didnt do good at gatherings for quite some time. even with people in AA, id do ok if it was just a few of us conversatin, but at AA functions? quite often i would rather go home and be by myself.
took me time to learn how to add to those occasions, like the big book talks about
Why sit with a long face in places where there is drinking, sighing about the good old days. If it is a happy occasion, try to increase the pleasure of those there....
actually, it took time for me to learn everything, the main thing is learning who i was.
i still can get bored or reeeeeallly just want to leave some gatherings. just not fun or enjoyable to me, and thats ok.
and,being an introvert(part of that "who i was" i learned) i can really enjoy being by myself, which i couldnt do early on in recovery.
im thinkin youre doin some learnin about you tonight,pooky.