Hi, welcome, katrina.
Have you read through the posts at the top of the forum? Here, link:
Newcomers to Recovery - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information
Also, you may want to join in on the January 2017 Class thread, it's people who are all quitting this month.
link:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-part-2-a.html
Just go to bed sober tonight. You can do it. We are here, keep talking. I spent a lot of time on this site in early days, and it helped me so much. There is a deep well of wisdom and support on this site.
It gets better!