Thank u very much. Yes that has helped tremendously. Thank u all this site and the wonderful ppl are amazing in the way u all try and help. I am just laying here with my children feeling so ashamed that I would be such a train wreck yesterday. Today I am sick. So damn sick. But tomorrow, I will be a happy loving fun caring person. One, who has alot of friends and has a beautiful clean house. And nobody will know the pain I carry with me. ☹