Hugs to to bfree!! I remember what it was like to have those same feelings you are having right now. AA has changed my life for the better. It's not just about not drinking. I am now happy and FREE!!
I didn't do anything without drinking. Heck, I use to take beer in the shower with me!! UGH!! I had to learn to change my way of thinking. One of my favorite sayings is: What other people think of me is none of my business!
As long as I'm doing the "next right thing" and living my life the way it was meant to be, the I know there is nothing other can say about me. And if they did, screw them. (this is progress, not perfection) LOL
I found that alot of my troubles were of my own making. Thinking I knew what everyone else thought. My life is so much better now.
Hope you find what you're looking for! We're here to help!!
Hugs,
Missy