Finally asking for forgiveness
I have abused alcohol for 23 years. Drugs too in my early youth and 20's.
For my entire life I've felt shame, guilt, sadness, loneliness -- even in my childhood. I have NEVER felt good about me. I have harped on every negative thing that has ever happened to me or that I did. I had to drink, I didn't deserve to be happy, I was a horrible person.
Last night, I finally asked for forgiveness. I cried, a lot, but at the end of my prayer I felt very calm and FINALLY deserving of forgiveness and the ability to move forward and let all the accumulated sh*t go. It's time.
Day 8 -- sober. Please share your story of forgiveness if you have one.