not here to judge my friend, we're in this fight together. You don't have to be miserable, you don't have to be alone. Right here with you.
I used to hate how i thought everyone criticized and judged me to, then i realized that i am my own worst critic. My critic is my ego. I used to do alot more battles between ego and spirit. I started trying to think positive, not concerning myself so much whith what others think. Its what i think that matters most.
there was also a time that i didn't want to feel either, further down the road i COULDN"T feel anymore. I chose not to. I didn't know any different. Recovery, sobriety has taught me alot in 14 months. I wouldn't trade it for anything in this world.
Life is better today, and i do believe it will keep getting better. Putting down the drink and drugs was the key, then going to AA. But thats what worked for me.
I remember only too well what all my yesterdays brought me. all that pain, suffering.
don't give up hope.
hugs, Wendy