Is there ever a point where an addict can say, I never would have done those things, it was my addiction controlling me? Is that a cop out?
Early recovery came with a great deal of shame which lessened when I realized what's important is what I do TODAY. I think the first few years are difficult because all those feelings we drank to escape now must be faced sans anesthesia. I wouldn't have gotten or stayed sober without the support of AA and a terrific shrink.