Just wanted to Jump in with you guys! I have had several attempts at getting sober this year and after making it just over 90 days i relapsed in December and ended up in ER due to withdrawals. At this point I have had Several Relapses and all I can say is they get worse and worse and worse. The whole kindling effect is no joke.
I got back with my doctor and we are working on a plan to get me straightened back out. My new sobriety date is 12/23/16. I got 11 days so far.
All I can say is do not fool yourself into thinking that you will have control ever again. It gets worse and worse every time.
I am determined to get back on course and hopefully we can all do this together. Great to know that you are not alone!