^^^ me, too, g.
I'm still tense and it makes me awkward and insecure, so I say weird things that are amusing at first, but get annoying to those who see a lot of me. Plus there are people I should see and don't want to. Plus I keep losing things. And my priorities are screwy -- the reason I'm losing big things is I'm obsessing over little ones. *Plus* I have some work I brought that must get done, and I'm so busy being neurotic, I haven't gotten to a speck of it.
Ugh. I hate the holiday season. Give me back my routine and isolation.