Originally Posted by
steve-in-kville 
Seriously though, after that last relapse I was pretty shaken.
Your last relapse, or your last and final drink?
There is a difference.
Originally Posted by
steve-in-kville No more obsessing over it, no more counting days, no more reasoning with "the voice." The voice has no say in what I do. I do what I do.
That's good, but that voice usually appears to be you, and one of its prime functions is to conceal its existence, so the ability to recognize it must therefore be learned.
You mentioned after your last "relapse" that you were going to read up on AVRT. Did you ever actually get around to doing that?
Originally Posted by
steve-in-kville Like I said, its a rough draft at this point.
To me, this reads very much like the voice, unrecognized.
Is your abstinence a rough draft? Another experiment to see how it goes?