Happy holidays Undies!
I didn't look forward to my first holidays sober. I didn't know what to expect. What I found was that it felt great to be clear headed on Christmas morning with my kids. It gets better and better every year.
Kopfan - I know how hard it can be in sobriety to connect to a parter who's drinking. Keep working at it.
Have a safe, sober and jolly Holiday, all!