Hi ladyfriend,
Try calling the AA line again you will find someone who can help you. I called the other night and this girl answer the phone and after talking a bit she gave me the address of a meeting she was going next day so we could meet. It made me feel better. I was so sick the next day I could not go but there is help if you are willing to ask for it.
First thing is to stop drinking so you can clear your mind. I get very depress when drunk lately and I think there's no point but there is.
Keep posting you are not alone.