Originally Posted by
whopper 
...so my only recourse was to drink again.... I am a lonely person, I have no life, nor friends, which leads me to drink. Anyone would do the same as me if they were in my position.
Sounds like a strong addict voice telling you lies.
You have lots of options other than to drink, which is probably the
cause of your depression in the first place. And most people don't drink themselves to death in response to being lonely, they get out and do things and eventually realize that drinking is the
cause of them having no life or friends. It's only us addicts who delude ourselves with any excuse we can find to justify continuing to drink.
As other suggest, you might strongly consider an outpatient or even inpatient program to get you enough sober time to really see things as they are, not as your addict voice wants you to believe they are.