I don't think I can argue with you i do want to keep some connection just in case. I am afraid if I lose his # and decide to use again I will have to put myself in dangerous situations again. last time I tried to cop on the streets I got beaten up and my taken, I hold the # so that I won't roam the streets again . I am not sure if I am doing the right thing or if it is just the addict in me making excuses. Who am I kidding the addiction always wants to win. I think I have to stop fooling myself.
Thinking out loud,
Beth