Beth...
My dealer showed up at my door....
They don't like losing customers... cuts into their cash flow...and trust me... all you are is a piece of meat that gives him money....
And speaking of doors....
as long as we leave a crack... addiction will try to slip in...
allowing thoughts of using helps to break down our defenses... so.. try not to think about it... and if your spiritual.. it really helped me to pray...
Sometimes.. we only have to get through a short time before we again realize that using is a dead end street...
Praying for clarity of thought... and the strength not to call...