Thanks PJ yea I plan to see a doc in January but right now I can't afford to pay for an appointment up front. I did go to see a psychiatrist back in July because of anxiety problems in very early recovery and after we talked he said I could try antidepressants if I wanted, but that I should get hooked up with regular care as it's difficult to tell in just one appointment if that's really the best course of action. I decided not to go on the meds just then. I'm skeptical as I'm wondering if my brain chemistry is just going haywire because of the stage of recovery I'm in. I can discuss that further with a doc. Just curious what others have experienced though, especially with depression in the first year or with not being able to get anything done as far as 9 months in to recovery.