Originally Posted by
Illuminate 
I'm just trying to sort out the difference between willpower and acceptance of disease, I guess.
I spent a lot of time wondering about such things, too. While I never got to the bottom of it, I did conclude that no matter what the ultimate answer is, it wouldn't change what I needed to do to get better.
I had to decide not to drink again and then figure out how I was going to be OK with that for the rest of my life.