Day 1 and looking for support
Wow, where to start. Im laying beside my husband as he sleeps and I cry. I've been binge drinking since I was 22 and I'm now 34. It has rarely stopped for longer than 2 months.
I am a female and i can easily drink 12 beers a night. Not every night, but it's gotten to 3 days a week.
Sometimes i drink whatever I can get my hands on. Once I start, I don't stop until I pass out. My husband rarely drinks and I'm always embarrassed by myself.
I get really bad anxiety and pounding alcohol makes it go away.
The last time I drank liquor was the night before Thanksgiving. I drank a bottle of jack to myself at my husband's families house. I know they talked about me. I drank 8 beers monday night and that's the last time. Any advice would be so appreciated. Thanks.