Just ducking in really quickly to say hi. Bf is here. I struggled to not have a drink before seeing him. Nerves. We talked about this secret Santa nonsense. I told him I felt not included, put in my place, and handicapped. Because now how should I contribute to the family Christmas and show my gratitude for their hospitality...
anyway he's been apologetic for not sticking up for me. And I made sure he was aware how wary I am especially because of the thanksgiving bender
He told me he still plans on not drinking and he will be on my side and make sure his family knows how important I am to him
But they've already told me where I stand
Can't help but think that they were attached to his ex. And I'm the new girlfriend. And instead of welcoming me in they are keeping me at an arms length
Makes me feel not so great.