Out of patience today......
I am and it's not good. I have zero tolerance for any more bs from my AH. Yeah yeah he quit he started again he quit he started again.... so he won't go to AA he says because he is not like "those people" because they have lost everything....well let me just tell you - last night I brought down a suite case, put it at his night stand and filled it with his alcohol and a family photo - so there, now you have the life you have chosen and a reminder of what you are losing! Now he can go sit right next to "those people" and tell them his story, like that will ever happen!
I told him he had to explain to the children why he was asked to leave and he had to go regardless if he went to rehab or to sleep in his truck he HAD to leave.
God help us all this evening!
No matter how many prayers I have said or how many meetings I attend my mouth will NOT stop. It's like 18 years of what I have wanted to say is finally coming out and I can't stop myself.
My focus right now will be on me and the girls....just totally frustrated