Welcome to the Forum Carlfardman!!
Your story sounds very familiar, drinking evolved into drinking alone, not being able to go a period of time without drinking, drinking just to fill time.
I got to the point where something had to change, as the volume of alcohol I was consuming was increasing and increasing, and that eventually would be unsustainable.
But you can turn things around, it can be done, but not without a change in your lifestyle, I had to stop coming home and drinking alone, had to plan new activities for my evenings, my weekends, break the habits that saw me drunk falling into bed each night after a binge.
You'll find loads of support here on SR, great to have you onboard!!
