Hi Dreamz - welcome
The really scary thing for most of us here was the speed we went from someone who could more or less pass for a normal drinker to full-blown alcoholic.
The bad news is this is a progressive thing.
I think you belong here. no matter what you want to call it, it's a problem and it's getting worse...You don't want to find out what happens when you're hitting 2l of vodka a day, or more.
D