I want you to know that, even though I've been able to heal quite a bit in a very short amount of time in sobriety, I still have a lot of insecurities.. Today my mom wanted to borrow my car and I stood there trying to figure out if there were any empty containers on the passenger side floor or anywhere in the car. It's been three months since I purchased anything. I still have my triggers. To say I "still" anything at this point is kind of strange because I'm so brand new in recovery.