Another weird thought I've been having: am I 'cheating' in my recovery because I'm utilizing a medication? Although I'm going to AA and working the program again, coming to SR, etc. It feels like because I'm not *struggling* through heavy cravings and winning the battle over them, I'm somehow taking the easy way out.
I know that's crazy and and not rational, but after 10+ years of struggling to stay sober, this is where my brain leads me.