My brain keeps looking for an escape, and now that the alcohol is gone, it's going into hyperdrive. Luckily I do have things in my days to keep me busy, but my mind isn't really there.
I sent an email to my girlfriend yesterday, checking in with her. I haven't heard back yet. I guess it's the 'not-knowing' that is driving me crazy right now. Feeling like I don't have control over a situation sends my anxiety sky-high. There's no amount of manipulation or rationalization that can fix this situation for me.