How long does it take
When I was sober for 3 years I developed a strength in me I didn't know existed. I never was tempted with alcohol, I made up my mind that I was done. Now it seems after relapsing I've lost the strength. Just on my way home from work I stopped at a gas station and walked around it debating if I should. So I played out the fantasy in my head and the ending wasn't fun. The ending involved ruining the rest of my day cause I would be coming down from it. I would then need to hope no one could smell it followed by some more self loathing as if I need anymore of that. Why would someone be tempted by something that horrible. When will I get back to the place where the thought of alcohol doesn't enter my head?