Originally Posted by
Pressmetilihurt 
I start skipping meetings then I'm not an alcoholic then I drink.
Are you saying that only alcoholics can't drink, and that you tend to forget that you are an alcoholic, thereby forgetting that you can't drink? The problem is that anyone can drink, but some people probably shouldn't drink.
What do you think about what Freshstart said about not drinking, as opposed to trying to convince yourself that you can't drink all the time? Might that not simplify things for you?