12 days lost
I was doing incredibly well. Involved in groups, sober outings, feeling amazing. I think I had about 2 months sober. Night after the election went out with friend.. been drunk ever since up to last night. Back to sheer terror etc. Long story short the outcome of the election brought back history of sexual abuse I had pretty much not thought about in many years, dealt with at the time etc.
I'm back on the horse today. I have to be. Meeting tonight. I hope I don't just break down.
Thanks so much for being here.
-SNM