As Dee said, you are no better, no worse, than any of us here. You're going to have to smash the illusion of control....active addiction is by definition the complete lack of control. You'll have to learn what you have control of and what you don't. Take action on what you can, let go of the rest.
Redefining 'fun' and 'boring'. Are you having 'fun' right now? I think not. If sober is boring, its because you're letting it be boring. Right now, I'll take boring over the chaos I create when drinking and the hell on earth I live in.
Get some F2F support. You can do this. I know I can't do this alone. Hang in there, one day at a time.