That very night/wee hours of the next
morning I came in drunk, an argument
occurred, then took a hand full of pills
downed with wine never realizing the
impact of my actions would have on my
little family days afterwards.
My 2 little ones couldn't wake me
for their last day of vaction bible
school. I was awakened by the phone
ringing next to my bed. Was it God
calling me to wake up because He
wasnt done with me yet?
I answered and that led to family
stepping in to get help for me, help
I wasn't capable of getting on my own.
My husbands job offered a program to
use for members in the family if they
needed for certain health issues and
could get me help by getting court order
because I wasn't willing to go peacefully.
That day I was escorted to the backseat
of the police car with feelings of so much
hatred, shame, disgrace as I was driven to
a rehab hospital to be evaluated for reasons
of wanting to escape life and failure to
control my drunking or stop it completely.
I spent the next 28 days, my choice after
2 weeks, to remain their doing all that I
needed before I could be released and returned
home to my family receiving important
information about my alcoholism and its
affects on my mind, body and soul.
Then was given, taught a program of
recovery, a guideline to use in all areas
of my life to help me remain sober one
day at a time.
My journey in recovery/life was 26
yrs ago, August 11, 1990, my first
full sober day without a drop of
alcohol in my system, with a many
one days sober, many changes in
my life to get me where I am today.
First and foremost, extremely thankful
for my family for doing for me what I
wasn't capable of, didn't want to do, to
get me help when I was at the end of my
rope and placing me into the hands of
those with the knowledge to teach me
how to learn to lve life with out this horrible
addiction that tried to rip me from life
and my family.
I hung on for dear life and followed a many
a folks paving the road of recovery for me
to follow by listening, learning, absorbing
and applying tools and knowledge of an
effective program of recovery in all my
affairs.
By attending meetings to hear the
messages of hope, experiences, their
strengths that if they could and would
remain sober under all circumstances
that life throws at them, then so could
and would I.
26 yrs and here I am still walking along
my road of recovery passing on all that
was so freely passed on to me to all those
looking for help and still struggling with
addiction themselves.
To give them, you all that hope that yes,
you can remain sober each day as long
as you, we, us remain teachable, willing,
openminded and honest with our selves
and our addiction/recovery to receive
many awesome gifts/rewards as written
for us in the Big Book of AA and shared
by many who are enjoying them today.
Put the plug in the jug and we never
have to pick it up again. So can you!!