So good to hear this you all.
I left my qualifier before internet was common so don't have a digital record of my immaturity at the time. I do remember my arrogant thinking that I could help him (Although I do cut myself some slack in that at that young age that was the best I could do).
I also remember the off-the-chart-psychedelic pain. Life has rarely hurt that much since then and even when it does, I have so many more tools to deal with it.