Wow - i just want to thank each and everyone of you for taking the time to reply and share your stories and insights. Every single reply was meaningful for me. I'm going to read them over and over and over today. I'm also going to find a meeting. Is today the day? I don't know yet. It might be.
I tried telling myself i could moderate - 1 drink per day. That worked about 2x a week. So i know that's no longer an option.
Xo