Social anxiety is very tough to deal with. I think I know where you are coming from. At it's worse, I was pretty much house bound for a while, terrified to go any where. Eventually meds and therapy helped a lot. I still deal with it, but it is mostly managable now. What I do know is that drinking makes it much worse. I end up stuck in my apartment afraid to go anywhere. The only place I can force myself to go to is back to the liquor store than straight home and drink to calm down. My world gets real small. Sounds like you might benefit from a short stint in detox. While there, they will probably give you an evaluation and connect you with a doctor that can help. Good luck. John