BerryBean... I know... I feel like for the first time in my life my self-view is positive.... and I have an ego but it isn't one that defends a broken person and keeps me in a low place anymore, and that's a good thing.
I do strive for balance. I keep swinging beyond the point where I'm trying to land. I get that this is a learning curve though and I don't get frustrated, I keep myself in check. These days I get frustrated at all the little physical health complaints I have, which I won't get in to... but I now respect myself enough to proactively take steps to fix them.
My back was hurting so bad yesterday and the day before! My hips, too. I gotta get some serious weight off. Regardless of being the heaviest I have ever been and being unhappy with this body, inside, I am the happiest I have ever been. I like everything about who I am on the inside, so I take care of the outside.
Last edited by BrendaChenowyth; 11-08-2016 at 05:57 AM.
Reason: I'm not that big, I'm only 188