Hi fly, glad you're here. I went to rehab about a year ago and the teachings were all about living in the moment. It's hard to do. But I learned that my thoughts control my emotions. And that you can't believe everything you think. Your thoughts are not truth, they are just thoughts. Yet most of us walking around believing our thoughts -- which can lead to feelings of anxiety, depression, etc -- are fact. When you change your thoughts, you change your emotions. I know it sounds simplistic, maybe even pollyanna-ish, but give it a try. I don't do AA, but it's a fine thing when other people can relate to you and bring you back down to earth. :-)