How about a thought experiment from an agnostic , non any-'program' bent.
What if it's the part of our thinking/brains/minds that wants/ needs to get to the 48th drink that makes us believe that the 2nd-5th really do the things we/It 'says it does? What if It just lies to get to the 30th ? I guarantee that It doesn't give a flip about the emotional/spiritual/biologic damage that racking up years of 20th's and more cause. It lies , It has to to get the 50th, It needs to start the count, It's goal is to get You to start the count, and then It can take it from there, It Lies.