Originally Posted by
romanerin2011 
My cravings show up out of no where. This passed relapse I had no intention of drinking.
This thing cunningly boasts of its own silence. I've probably said it elsewhere, but I will say it again here. If you hear
"I have no desire to drink", that is simply a plan to drink in the presence of that desire at some point in the future.
Originally Posted by
romanerin2011 I passed a gas station and it hit me... I turned around. I was pretty upset with myself as I was checking out but I did it anyway.
There it is right there.
Originally Posted by
romanerin2011 No drinking is not morally OK with me.
That's a step in the right direction. Just how "not morally OK" is drinking for you, though? Say, on a scale from 1 to 10. Is there anything more "not morally OK" than drinking?
Bearing in mind, once again, that alcohol obliterates your conscience, and that you therefore can't predict what you might do, or the resulting damage, once under the influence?