Sasha
I feel your pain while reading your post. Nobody can tell you what to do or if you did the right thing. You must always do what you feel is right for YOU. Leaving is so hard to do especially if you still love this man as I love mine. For me it has been 2 month now and there is not one day that goes by when I don't miss him. It is all about choices we make. Time will heal all and with a lot of hard work and your HP beside you, you can make it. It feels nice to have serenity. Take care of yourself. Love yourself and learn all about the inner child in you, the one that hurts. You can do it and I am living prove of this along with thousands of others that left and have a loving and full healthy life now. Don't you deserve that? Don't we all? Much love to you.